Saturday, March 24, 2007

Leave Me Alone


I heard there's a meme going around somewhere called "What Famous Painting Are You?" I think that right at this moment I would be The Scream, and what I'm screaming is Leave Me Alone! My income tax conundrum, since Mom died, necessitating outside tax preparation help for the first time in my life...my four bosses (that is not a typo)and the various frustrations associated with work...intermittent health anxieties involving myself and the people and pets around me...my fibroid, which I sometimes picture as the in utero monster in Alien...even, sadly, my church, which sometimes feels like a needy, cheeping little baby bird...my lay ministry program, which is turning out to be a huge disappointment on multiple levels, although I feel compelled to soldier on until the end...my house, which I have no time or money to keep up...

Gaaaaah! If this were the survival of the fittest being played out on some sun-scorched savannah, I'd be Lion Chow.

I am so tired right now I'd like to sleep for a week. I'm too tired to write...to read...to think.

6 comments:

cheesehead said...

((((LutheranChik))))

Kathryn said...

Oh, I'm sorry. I do hope you get a bit of space and recovery time.
Now I'll go away and leave you in peace!

The Simpleton said...

I wonder if that's possible. Do you have a sick day or two banked up to make an emotional wellness break? If your job is like most jobs in America today, the stuff just piles up in your absence, I know, but sometimes being well-rested makes it easier to tackle even a slightly larger workload.

Turn off your phone, put away the tax materials (I think I spent more time in tears over taxes the year my dad died than over his death), and play at being the Lion herself, resting on the savannah.

Deb said...

I am SO with you! Right now at church we have a brand new VERY part time interim pastor. Since August when our beloved long-term pastor left, the Spiritual Nurture team has been "in-charge". I'm one of the 2 coordinators of that team and we are tired of making decisions and being responsible for making sure everyone is doing what needs to be done. This morning I did the "Mission Moment" during the service asking for help. I really wanted to scream "I quit! You do it now!" instead of gently asking for badly needed help. I must have sounded desperate enough, because we got 4 volunteers to take over some tasks. Never mind that we've been asking for this help since August. . . . .
And I definitely know how draining estate work is. My sister and I are trustees of my mom's estate which was in a trust. Talk about paperwork and taxes . . . .Well, I'd rather not.
Be good to yourself - go hole up somewhere with whatever comforts you. For me it's my knitting, my music, and my journal.

toujoursdan said...

I like what the Simpleton says. After 6 months of stress I took a mental health day Thursday and Friday and enjoyed myself.

I feel much better.

Deb said...

I took a sick day today to combat the general physical "I feel like a truck ran over me" sense of exhaustion. I am already feeling better after sleeping a good 8.5 hours (about 2 hours more than the usual nightly ration) and enjoying a very leisurely morning. I definitely have something going on in my respiratory system - not a cold, exactly, but not a clean bill of health either. I know that I have a good sub in my classroom today too, which helps my mental state.