Today I was called into last-minute duty as an assisting minister when our scheduled AM couldn't make it; our pastor was away on assignment, and one of my fellow lay ministry trainees did the preaching. (Next week I get a turn at preaching. I was initially bummed to learn that for Lent we were going to ditch the lectionary Gospel lessons and instead use the Beatitudes, but since I found out that I get to preach on "Blessed are the meek" I'm -- well, I'm geeked to talk about the meek. Especially since I'm going to blow the minds of my hearers by informing them that what they think this blessing is all about, isn't. Big hat tip, by the way, to Sarah Dylan Breuer for inspiring me with her comments on this text.)
How did our service go, led by two semi-trained professionals? Not so bad. Just a couple of Keystone Kops moments. I find that worship leadership is doing a lot to temper my inner control freak. Because:
No matter how carefully you plan worship, the service will never go exactly the way you want it to. And if you don't plan worship, it will be even more not the way you want it to go.
The more people involved in leading/assisting, the more the opportunities for messing things up.
You, personally, will mess up in some way, even if you're the only one who knows this.
Despite these facts of life, the service will still work out in the end, because it's a God thing, not your thing.
So get over yourself.
It's hard, but I'm learning.